Board Thread:General Wiki Discussion/@comment-4832646-20140814234334/@comment-3999760-20140815030320

Fatal Disease wrote: Sloshedtrain wrote: I work when I can nowadays. I been buried under work lately, also I've been editing on this wiki for very long time, so I lost some interest of being here and suffering from a very severe burnout. I started my hiatus somewhere late-2013 I believe. I reason having been doing "brcat work", because it seemed like there wasn't need for me to constantly intervene or make new rules. I felt that the community and the admins (I'm not pointing who) sort of pushed me aside to the job I been doing before. I grew to think that the wiki could handle itself without my constant presence.

If you guys need me to do more things around, then I'll do a bit more. It seem like you're after my position, no offense though. Starting a demotion thread on an somewhat-inactive bureaucrat is reasonable, but coming from you trying to become brat, it seems a bit predictable.

It seems like everyone is getting a demotion thread nowadays, so I don't feel offended. I just clarify why I been absent these past few months.

EDIT:I still want to be bcrat on this wiki, if I'm going to have to bump up my activity, I will do so. Well, pretty much, I was the one that noticed it and was about to institute a new proposal for bureaucrats and rollbacks through this wiki and the other pasta wikis as well. I wouldn't feel that the user is out to get your job, or anything. It's just that we feel like... well... you're just there hung like a decoration nowadays. You're needed around here; you're possibly the bureaucrat that can be a possible tie-breaker when Guy or Skelly disagree with something. Even one of the authorities had said that you were a useless 'crat, because you pushed yourself off from the job.

"Yeah. The community is filled with a bunch of assholes, but that doesn't mean that you should just leave randomly and not be heard from ever again." I do know this community. Some offsite, but mostly onsite. I do know how it feels to be pushed towards the edge of the limit that you say "Fuck this, I'm done." Why, shit. I was harassed by some users, that it would be considered bullying to their part, that I just went downhill.

But this isn't about me. What I'm trying to get at is that don't leave the job that you love, because people are being assholes about it. Even if you're pushed to the limit on taking a break, then take the break and announce it. Don't make it a long inactivity where this occurs. If anything, this demotion thread only pushes further me from the community. I do admit that the inactivity has went out of control in recent times, but I have completely failed the wiki? Am I an incompetent bcrat? Have I done anything that completely obstructs the well being of the site? I don't personally believe so.

I feel like I have become Cleric in terms of presence on the wiki. The wiki's dilemmas and problems seem to be an endless flow of shit that always needs to be fix. The ordeal with the chat only makes this situation even worse. I was actually planning to raise my activity, but the chat conflict basically drained me.

Now I don't want to sit here and blame the community for my inactivity. There are other factors in my personal life that come to play here, which I don't really want to go into details, cause you know, private shit. Though, I been trying to keep my presence somewhat up around here these past three months. But only resulted into a few edits per day.

Like I stated earlier, I still want to be bureaucrat, and I still want to have influence.