Shadow of Existence

I all started what feels like decades ago...

A rush hit me of shock and pain, unlike anything I had felt before... it felt as though the world itself was gone and that I had entered a place that was completely alien to me... it felt like torment to my soul... then I awoke.

I looked around what I believed to be my room feeling odd, but regardless I proceeded. I went to where I needed to go and did what was required of me. I did this for what I assume where days at a time, it all felt so strange. My mind and senses showed me and tried to reassure me that I was where I needed to be yet my entire existence felt out of place. The day was in a haze but unfortunately for me the night became flawlessly clear.

Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis, I ask because I feel it is the only way to communicate what I feel. You awake fully aware of yourself and surroundings yet you remain immobile. Unfortunately for most people this is a state of terror as hallucinations often occur here, living a nightmare. This was my only way to justify this experience to myself and I feel because of this it may be the only way you can understand.

Hours of agony...trapped between dream and consciousness...until it all becomes clear to me... and it shows up... a creature, no eyes... naked... covered in a strange thick green hair oozing out black liquid, whether it was his own fur or not I do not know. He looked human but had a presence of no living thing or evil just of pure agony and torment while at the same time a cold dark nothingness within his very soul, if he is capable of possessing one...

He does things. I feel like he is violating me, he does terrible unspeakable acts of sin upon all those I hold dear... right in front of me. But then he just stares... gazing into my soul, this is the most agonizing thing I have ever felt in my life... it is as if his entire distorted and evil existence was seeping into me. And then I awake.

I try to rationalize it, but despite my feelings of dread and fear I proceed. I went to where I needed to go and did what was required of me. Don’t get me wrong I know who I am and my place in this twisted and disjointed universe I find myself in however I feel as though I cannot connect the dots. My hobbies, responsibilities, personal relationships all feel unclear and completely irrelevant. I feel him starting to watch over me. If I turn around I feel as though I’ll see him, I don’t but at the same time I feel I do, gazing at me bringing me further into whatever insanity or obscurity I am in, the pain is starting to come agonizing and unbearable.

He is behind me... I need to get away but I know there is no escape... I run shrouded in darkness with nothing but a faint light in the distance... I make it

The empty man wants me, for I am what shall make him complete. His influence shall overcome me... turn me from the inside out... make me anew again... how I fear this and desperately want to prevent it... all that I am holds on for life but there is no escape... soon I shall be part of him, a mere shadow of existence and life.







