User blog comment:Rainboh/Mississippi/@comment-26169026-20160129201232

I appreciate all of your responses. I've been in contact with the medicaid office several times in the past two weeks regarding my case. They just keep adding more and more things that they say is wrong or need from me. So its highly possible that my kids will be denied their medicaid. As of the last call I received from them, they were asking about absent fathers. They don't like that I won't name anyone and I literally have no reason to. As far as I know, I don't know who my boys' fathers are... and I'm not lying. I made a lot of mistakes but because I'm white from a decent family, they assume I'm lying and I hate that I'm playing the race card, but its true. The way things are set up down here, if I were of color, I'd be getting some kind of help. Which is totally bogus. People talk about white privelege(I'm sure I spelled that wrong) like its nationwide... but when it comes to certain things, they don't believe you. Growing up, I lived with a very strict grandmother so after she passed away, I did a lot of drugs and went to a lot of parties and I made a lot of very bad choices. There are many nights from then, that I can't even remember too well so with me saying I don't know, I'm being completely real about it. And it just doesn't seem fair to me that I'd have to dredge up some pretty bad memories as it is. But yeah, thanks for reading and responding to my ramblings. Writing here has helped me a lot, you guys have no idea. It helps me take my mind off things even when I'm writing about the shit that bothers me. You guys aren't around me 24/7 and only know what I post, but you've been far kinder to me than people that I have known my entire life... and for this I am sincerely grateful.