Board Thread:Off Topic/@comment-24526472-20140422223936/@comment-26670110-20150721221721

Hellhound iscariot666 wrote: RisingFusion wrote: So you're afraid of the guilt. Yeah, but I know I can't run from problems. I know I need to accept responsiblity, which I try to do. I am actually getting worried about myself, because I seem to see myself as a victim and I have been ignoring a lot of people's feelings. I think I am starting to get spiteful and good things never come with spitefulness.

I've had a lot going on and I have had to make a lot of sacrifices in regard to surviving. Don't pity me! I wish I didn't have this type of spitefulness and 'sense of being wronged.'  I need to understand people have needs to, instead of just being a self-centered cunt!

I am tired of not having someone there that is supposed to help me. I am scared of possibly being evicted and it's not helping my sleep. I might have to move soon since my time on the section eight waiting list is coming up. My student loans are also scary, because I have somebody paying for my loans, but the person paying my loans with my means of income isn't on the account for my student loans. I also have caregivers coming and going, the one I have now hasn't even shown up.

I have dealt with personal problems like this before and I just hate always using guilt trips and being a spiteful bitch. Nothing excuses my behavior.

Exactly. And it's horrible that nobody understands. They keep trying to "help". Some people are different, they get a free pass. I'm not one of those people. By the way, most people think I'm scuicidal, but I'm not. I'm actually a little scared of being suicidal. I'm afraid hat other people will commit suicide. It's a horrible world we live in.