User:Creepypasta my life

The story why I'm here

As a kid I was never really scared of monsters or anything I thought I lived a perfectly normal life until I became a teenager things started to get freaky so I was listening to creepypastas and stuff I thought it would be fun to listen to. Then I see it the one creepypastas my friend never wants to hear or read about... Jeff the killer. So I decided to listen to it since I've heard of him before and I started listening to it, then for some reason I feel like I need to do something so I shook off the strange feeling despising the fact I had no idea what it was until I heard the part when Jeffrey/Jeff carves a smile in his face and burned his eyelids out that's when it came back that same feeling this time it FELT like I had to kill something or someone I got freaked out so I took a break before resuming the creepypasta. I took a couple of breaths and went to get a drink and sit down for a second. A few minutes later I'm watching it again then after it was done I never got the feeling out of my head matter of fact I still feel it now the urge to kill but it isn't strong. The next few nights I woke up in the middle if the night and felt the urge again I couldn't sleep for while then I feel asleep after a while. Now I stay in my room as long as I can and I can feel like something is pulling on my brain like I can't explain but I still feel it the feeling like a sixth sense or something. Earlier today I had to take care of the chickens so I can get money from my dad for the work and we have a large tree next to the house so I walked past it then I hit me I felt like I couldn't stand anymore I tried to grab a branch the branch broke and I leaned against the tree I said things like I don't want to hurt anyone anymore but the urge was really strong I felt like I'm losing my sanity. But I managed to stay sane but I'm not sure how school is going to be two of my friends are moving away and I feel like I'm going to be antisocial because of the urge and because of my sanity. last year I felt when I'm around certain people I just get blood thirsty like right now. I have no idea what going on yesterday I caught myself looking in the mirror wanting my skin to be pale white. I have no idea what's happening to me maybe it might be a curse we only have a few family members that have a J in their names I'm one of them I have a J in my name I'm also strong for a girl and I thought it was insane but yet I might be going insane so I hope I can pull through this with out hurting anyone...