User blog:Umbrello/SSRI withdrawl is its own creeypasta

5 years ago I was rediagnosed with a mood disorder after years of being treated for anxiety and depression. I was put on a new medication (lamictal) and stopped taking one of my old ones (welbutrin). However, I contiued to take Lexapro for whatever reason, even though it probably had already stopped working.

Fast forward to 2018 where I finally realized I should just stop taking Lexapro. Maybe it would have been sooner if the doctor that rediagnosed me didn't suddenly leave and I ended up with a guy who isn't the best conversationalist (okay, he has a thick Indian accent which causes a bit of a disconnect). I didn't stop taking it on purpose, it just kind of happened because I didn't pick up my prescription for a few days since stuff was going on and I was really tired / stressed / etc. But when I finally picked it up I realized that I felt fine. I wasn't experiencing any kind of mental or emotional issues so I continued to not take it.

My psych told me to ween myself off of it, but by that point I wasn't willing. I was happy to be rid of some of the side effects and I didn't want them to come back. I took a half a pill here and there if I got waves of nausea and dizziness, but now that's not happening. The last half a pill I took was over a week or so ago, maybe two.

Through all this, I've been having trouble eating. I don't have much of an appetite and whatever I eat makes me feel like crap. Last Saturday, I ate something different than I usually would at McDonald's and I got really sick. I threw up a lot and since then I just haven't felt right. I also smoke a lot of weed, but it's been making me feel worse lately so I stopped last night. Right now, I just want to stop typing this a lay down.

I read some people's experiences with going off of Lexapro and I'm really glad it's not as bad as it could be. I don't have "brain zaps" which sound scary. I'm just really sick of feeling this way and I want it to end. I still think the McDonald's could have just really fucked me up and maybe I'll be okay in a few days, but to still feel like this after four days seems odd. Even if it's all the Lexapro withdrawl's fault, I don't think I'll eat at Micky Deez again.