User blog:Alyssa13Zero/DayOne

I hated my teen years. I was severly bullied at the schools I went to all because I was different, just because I was mentaly ill and live with learning difficultys. Because I walked differently, talked different, and was generaly different I was bullied for it. I had things like siccors, books and stones thrown at me, I would get shoved in to doors and walls. I was even spat on a few times, and verious nasty thing yelled at me all the tim.

I remember one time I was talking with what I was my best freind at the time during the first break at school, we got talking and I happend to have anxity attack. I was hyperventilating and having muscle spasams due to the anxity attack, so I took my inhaler and calmed myself down. My friend asked me why I get like that sometimes? and why do I seem to space out and act weird at times?.

I told her that I live with mental health issue, and I made the mistake of telling her I was diagnosed with sever deppresion, emotional unstayble and compulsive behaviour, anxity disorder, multiple personality disorder and border line bipoler disorder. As I said big mistake telling her any of this because it was all over school by lunch.

I was now the mental kid in school. Everyone either avioded me or bullied me even worse than what was being done to me, I confronted my "so called friend" and she had the ordasity to stand there and lie to me, she lied strait to my face with out seconed thought. She told me "It wasn't me, it must have been somebody else". It shock her up when I told her that I didn't tell anyone else.

Which was confermed when the rest of my so called friends who stood arouned her at the time, the look on her face read "Oh shit now I'm going to be murdered".

I stood there took a deep breth and said "I thought you were my friend, I never told anyone about the things you told me in confidance. Not even once. To everyone who is her friend or spend any time around her, be carfull what you say and do as she will tell everyone. she can't keep secrets let alone be trusted" then I walked away, we never spoke after that.

3 months later she transfered to another school I never did find out why.

I may continue to blog about past events in my life, that depends if I can bring myself to continue doing so.