The Fall

All I could think of was how could this happen to me, I mean seriously me?? I haven’t done anything to deserve this. But I guess there’s no point dwelling in the past, the point is that I’m falling and have been for about 5 minutes now. At first I couldn’t think rationally, my mind was going too fast and so was I. after the initial panic I started to think, not about the falling but about my life. It’s been quite a mediocre one, I never really accomplished anything special, high school degree and working at a retail store isn’t much of an accomplishment in my mind. I always imagined myself as a successful businessman with a nice suit and office. But that’s a long lost dream. Then I began thinking of all the failed relationships with everyone I’ve ever had one with. You know now that I think of it I guess this isn’t that bad. Not really going to miss out on much. So I guess this is the acceptance stage. I’ve been falling for a good 10 to 15 minutes now and I’m starting to feel lightheaded. I’m wondering if this is ever going to…SPLAT! All I could think of was how could this happen to me, I mean seriously me?? I haven’t done anything to deserve this. But I guess there’s no point dwelling in the past, the point is that I’m falling and have been for about 5 minutes now. At first I couldn’t think rationally, my mind was going too fast and so was I. after the initial panic I started to think, not about the falling but about my life. It’s been quite a mediocre one, I never really accomplished anything special, high school degree and working at a retail store isn’t much of an accomplishment in my mind. I always imagined myself as a successful businessman with a nice suit and office. But that’s a long lost dream. Then I began thinking of all the failed relationships with everyone I’ve ever had one with. You know now that I think of it I guess this isn’t that bad. Not really going to miss out on much. So I guess this is the acceptance stage. I’ve been falling for a good 10 to 15 minutes now and I’m starting to feel lightheaded. I’m wondering if this is ever going to…SPLAT!