User blog comment:Shinigami.Eyes/Psychopath?/@comment-4295646-20111231002307

A friend of mine grapples with very similar professional diagnoses. During the later years of high school, she preferred to take an asocial tact and just sort of hang back, observing a lot, and in this way drift through her days with as little confrontation as possible. Which was a big change from the strong *anti*-social attitude she had taken before. May have been the shitty environment of the school, though; it's hard to estimate just how much external factors contribute to what we ultimately are. Some people have an extraordinary capacity to think out their own behavior, and can remake themselves almost at will.

I don't mean to switch the issue or wrench attention away from your thoughts. The point is, we are constantly creating and rewriting new versions of ourselves. I don't think there's any reason to think that you'll always feel the way you do now; perhaps some great emotional stimulus or surprising reevaluation is just on the horizon. Or maybe you'll come to like and appreciate the way you are now, instead.

But: keep thinking. Never stop thinking.