User blog:ScaryKat/Every day life

Okay so I'm not really sure how to do this, so I'm just going to write.

My sister is trying to get me to yell at her or something, I'm not sure. Anyways, I told her that I blamed myself when my cat died and last night I cried myself to sleep. Because she threw it back in my face after telling me that everyone hates me, that I'm ugly, and that I'll die alone. I don't understand her, this all started when I got my first cat and our mom adopted a stray. She was 4 at the time and I had just turned 7. So the cat was a birthday presint. First she tried to drown our mom's kitten and the tied a string around my cat's neck and draged it behind her, knowing that it was being strangled. Then when we asked her why she did it, She said :

"Because they're girls and girls have babys."

Then last night she reminded me that every pet that I have ever owned, gets taken from me. My first cat was taken to the pound when I was at school in second grade. Then I got a dog, she was also taken while I was at school, but durring third grade. Then in 2012 I got another cat, and everything was fine for the first year. Then I resqued a duck from some dogs, and I kept her. Then one of our negbors got upset because I wouldn't let her daughters pet the duck. And for good reason, too. A- the duck hadn't been to a vet and B- I didn't want to be responsable for them getting sick.

And because of that she called animal controle and they took the duck away, two weeks from my birthday. Then the cat that I owned at the same time as the duck got sick and died April 10, 2017. I cried myself to sleep every night for weeks and blamed myself for not noticing and for having to be at school, therefor not being able to see the change in him.

And I told my sister this, not expecting her to throw it back in my face. Even after walking her to the library, spending my money for a new library card for her, then buying her a soda, all before walking home. Now she's upset, because I told her that I would never, ever forgive her for that. And I'm the one who feels bad for making her feel bad! How does that work?!?