User blog:LilTwistedMe/Ah... Hi there...

So, I guess this is my first entry. Don't get too excited I don't know if I'll continue writing blogs. It seems too personal and I don't feel like editing names, dates, and details.

Anyhow, I guess I've been writing since I was about nine years old. Not that I remember. At sixteen I started working on my first novel. Nope, I still haven't published it. I've written three novels that I've trashed. I used to write almost every day. I stopped for several years. At one point, I was sharing my stories on a number of forums. However, you know how cold and cruel people can be. I know I'm not the most talented writer or that I could actually ever make a living wage at it. Still, I like to think that I have some sort of talent.

Basically, I got sick of the work for little pay off. I'd pour my heart and soul into a piece and re-work it until I memorized the damn thing. I'd post it and get, "Oh cool." Or, "this is so stupid." Even if I did receive more then three-word sentences is always seemed to be pretty negative. Now, I'm not looking for free cookies here. However, there is something to be said about real and actual constructive criticism.

All of this coupled with real-life hitting me like a cracked out rapist and depression gnawing at my feet caused me to stop writing for several years. I'm back at it. I know I'm not going to be the next Clive Barker or Stephen King but I want to enjoy myself again. I want to write a piece I can be proud of.

So far... It's going well. The criticism I received was helpful and not all negative. I took fourteen hours to write my first ten-page story in several years. It's not a complex story filled with detailed wonderous description but it works. It's a good start. Here's to continuing.