Control

Lately, I've been thinking about writing a story. There's one idea that I've thought of.. but I'm not sure if it will work. I'm currently writing this as a sort of digital memo to myself, in case I ever have time to sit down and think about it. To make it easier on myself, I'll label each section by the day/month/year.. if it drags on that long.

9/10/2013

It's my birthday, so before we start: Happy Birthday to you..

The idea I've thought of numerous times involves a struggle for the control of your own mind. I've sometimes wondered if we actually control what we do, or if there's another kind of force that watches, and makes us do what we do. ..But I can't really think of it too much right now.

9/11/2013

I just noticed that in my last entry, I put "Happy Birthday to you" despite meaning to say "me".. But it felt so natural, as if I was..someone else.. wishing myself a- Never mind, on to the ideas.

I've thought of the idea a bit more overnight. I'm starting to confuse reality with a story. I've actually started to think deeply, and try to relate this to real life. If there is something that controls us, why? Is it for entertainment? Does it watch what it makes us do for fun? It's a bit scary to think about..

9/12/2013

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9/13/2013

Apparently I woke up last night and decided to try and make an entry..but it didn't turn out well. I searched the "message" quite in-depth to see if I could salvage what I was trying to say.. but what I found was just.. creepy.

Anyways, As for the story idea. If there is something that controls what we do, does that mean it's making me question it? Am I acting on my own free will, or am I just playing into the hands of whatever is controlling me. Will I ever find out? Will I ever be in control? Am I ever in control at all? It would all make for a great story, but I still wonder.. once again.. Am I in control?

9/13/2013

YOU'RE NOT.

9/15/2013

I saw that I did another entry shortly after my first one on the 13th.. It was Friday the 13th, so I think a friend got into my entries and tried to trick me.. I know I didn't do it.. I don't think I did... But it happened in the middle of the night.. NO, I DID IT.

Wait, why did I just type that?

BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO.

Am I talking to myself..? This is getting weird.. I think I'm scaring myself.

9/16/2013

I think I'm going insane. I've been having conversations with myself ever since yesterday. I don't know why, but I can't stop myself. I think I should stop writing this story.. I'm starting to scare myself.

I just need to tell myself I'm in control... I'm in control. I'm in control. I'm in control..

YOU'RE NOT.