User blog comment:RuckusQuantum/Ruckus's Story/@comment-25941663-20160906141627/@comment-25073641-20160906145412

I don't deserve to be beat down - that's a bit too cruel, IMO - but I guess all my misdeeds shall warrant some sort of punishment. I can't imagine what kind of punishment I deserve.

You are so right about my ego being bloated as a goddamn air balloon. I have an arrogant side that shows up quite too often than I would have liked, and it gets to me every now and then. I have been trying to keep this side of me away because I don't want somehow to make people mad at me, but it just occurs. Randomly. I can control my ego, but if I do, it takes effort to keep it at bay.

About me being a writer... After all these years, maybe writing isn't just really for me. I'm trying my best to improve, and I take all your constructive criticisms very seriously... And hey, Dupin, before I forget, I'm not in any way offended by your criticism on my story earlier, it just so happens that I'd read it in a foul mood. I didn't ignore you and Raidra. In fact, I was really looking forward to measaging you two.

Graphic design, I've decided a month back that it's not what I'm going to take. I heard from a teacher that graphic designers can become financially and physiologically unstable during numerous crises, and for me, that doesn't sound like something I'd like to happen. Anything related to computers (especially game development) would be a good choice for me.

Freelance writing? Looks pleasant, but I'm quite sure it cannot sustain my neccesities in the near future. I can do it as some form of a hobby, but writing can never be a stable source of income... and that's one of the reasons why I hate to love being a writer.