User blog:エル・ローライト/L

Sadness is an emotion that can subside and deflate. Depression is something that consumes you and devours your soul... Its pain is so unbearable it leaves you engulfed in nothingness persuading you you're not worth it..

For eleven years of my life I was knocked around pushed around and despised. Each day I would wake up smiling and happy but would come home with a blue face and hunched back. As time went on I grew out of this and was taken from the life I once knew and dropped into a lake of air.

Two years later I found myself confronted by the same problems that I faced for those wretched eleven years. The sudden spiral of sorrow and psychopathy consumed my every will and made me something I wasn't. My straight back went hunch as I saw the world for what it was; A horrible filthy place filled with people only out for themselves. The sweets I ate numbed the pain but the sorrow shun through as I found myself in the midst of a never-ending battle between good and evil. Then the snow snapped and I fell with it dragging everything I thought I was down with me. Broken and scared I laid there, wondering why it had to come to this.

Seven months later, I'm asked why I'm such a freak... I only have one answer for you. A life that sees only death and despair. All the pain I went through every single moment: past, present and future...a burden so great it would leave you hunched over. A bitter taste in your mouth that would leave you longing for sweets..