User blog comment:GreyOwl/Life's mysteries/@comment-25500215-20141005161907

You're not crazy, and you get to change your mind about things. Right through life, but especially at 21. You're book smart, so you have the skills for about half of what you need to do - do the research, work out what resources you need, set up a support network, plan and budget and strategise- the other half is where the emotional and social stuff comes in. Your family's expectations, your own view of yourself, etc. This stuff gets easier with practice, but pretty much never starts off easy.

If your family isn't supporting you,find people - friends and mentors and fellow film enthusiasts - who will. Do something small, small enough not to be the end of the world if it fails. Thinking about your future as a huge, monolithic thing is a great way to psych yourself out; thinking, OK, in the next three months I'm going to make a five minute short, learn the names of three production places and their intern programs, get in contact with ten people who do what I want to do and see what advice they have to give, and write three scripts - that's acheiveable, right? Re-frame your interests to make them smaller and less all-or-nothing.