User blog:LukeMBrown/And so I return...

I almost felt as though the dreams had stopped...

After I posted my last two recollections, they stopped for a number of weeks. I continued to write them down on paper, but they stopped completely. I began to forget all about them, the first few weeks I still lay awake until I could go no longer, falling in to inevitable sleep and waking nightmareless for the first time in years. Soon I could fall asleep like a regular human being again...I had finally beaten them.

I still continued to write them on to paper, the significant ones that I could remember and the ones that left a lasting impression on me, but nothing new came to me, nothing good or bad. I would spend all of my nights in dreamless black, waking up the next morning neither afraid nor satisfied. I kept all of my hard copies hidden in my room, I didn't want the rest of my family finding them and wondering whether or not I had serious issues, or worse yet, having gone through the same things I have and reporting similar experiences. Part of me still wants to find out whether I am being haunted or not, and part of me is happy just living my life telling myself they are just dreams. It seemed like the easier option at the time.

I stayed at my girlfriend Jen's a few nights ago, and I experienced perhaps the most haunting nightmare of my entire life that night. I thought nothing of it, everybody gets nightmares from time to time..but when I returned home I found that all of my writings (the paper copies) had been taken away... I still haven't found any of them...

I'm going to write another story to you all (all of the none of you who are reading this), and explain that dream in full..I'm using this blog post simply to explain my absence and why I am choosing to come back now. Now you know...