User blog:Shinigami.Eyes/An Explanation

Okay, so I'm in chat a lot and I mention a gay boyfriend. As if that wasn't weird enough, there is an explanation for it for those who are curious (or nosy) enough to want to know what the hell I'm talking about.

As a teenager, I did everything in my power to move in with someone who I adored more than I thought I was capable of. Eventually, my parents caved to my tantrums and whatnot and finally decided to sign me over via power of attorney to this boy's family. At this time, I was fifteen years old, and I regret to say it, but I was also an idiot.

This boyfriend of mine kept the relationship a secret and I agreed to it. That was my first mistake. It became very taxing on me and I began to feel like an object of shame.

Slowly, he grew less defensive of me and we weren't as physically close anymore. I was already aware that he had interest in both genders, but eventually, his interest in women, including me, pretty much vanished.

Just recently, he came out of the closet, claiming to be 100% gay, claiming that he loves me still, but I'm what he calls his "lavender girlfriend", or basically his cover-up. So yes, I'm apparently still his girlfriend, but he's not sexually attracted to me.

Confused? It's okay. Me, too. Thank goodness it's an open relationship, though, so at least I have some freedom.