User blog comment:Rainboh/Bored/@comment-10789912-20160821173020

This is going to seem like it's an insult at first, but read until the end. You'll see that none of this is meant as one. I recommend seeing a psychiatrist (I remember you seeing a therapist previously, as stated in a now-old blog) about Borderline Personality Disorder.

You certainly seem to fit the description on many levels. A very long struggle with a major depressive disorder or some sort of social anxiety, the very odd and otherwise unstable mood and action clouds, clouded judgement naturally (cheating, drug abuse), and the inability to assimilate in full to society and function as a complete part which holds a job. Hard drug abuse in ages 12-20 (ding ding: methamphetamine, heroin, expectancy) is also a fairly common activity for those with this disorder.

In short, Borderline Personality Disorder is a personality disorder that is characterized by unstable moods, thoughts, behaviors, and the inability to find and maintain work and a healthy relationship with others (sexually, socially, working relationship, et cetera).

(DSMV: Symptoms include emotional instability, feelings of worthlessness, insecurity, impulsivity, and impaired social relationships.

Definition: A mental disorder characterized by unstable moods, behavior, and relationships.

Also called emotional dysregulation disorder)

If it's ruled as serious enough, you may be entitled to monetary aid and government aid in finding a good career that suits you, so that you can better take care of yourself and your children.