User blog comment:SnakeTongue237/General Nastiness: Where I've been over the past few months./@comment-25947144-20160817091421

I was often wondering what have you been doing all this time off-site. Listen, you probably don't want this, but you really should talk to someone, and I mean a psychiatrist. Nobody wants to since they think only "crazy" people go to therapy, but it would really help. Depression isn't something to joke with. Sometimes it's so mild that you can live an active life and you are the only one who knows about it. But sometimes it's so bad, you're surprised how you allow yourself to live.

In my case, depression was inspired by the awareness of how fucked-up the world generally is, something called "depressive realism" (strangely specific, isn't it?). Anyway, since my state of mind was (and still is) motivated by real-life causes, I thought there wasn't anything that needed solving. The most ridiculous thing I've heard was, "Why are you so sad all the time? Have you tried to be happy?" Oh, you're totally right, why didn't I think about it before? Do you think depression is so good, I've never wanted to get rid of it.

But trust me, it gets better. With time, the sadness happens so much that you're left numb to it. Depression might not be gone forever, you may have better or worse times in your life, but as you go on you'll find more and more motivations. More reasons to live, to go on, to rise towards the type of life you want to live. I'm here if you ever want to talk, have a good one.