Ha Ha Tonka

Ever since I can remember I have always loved to hike. I grew up near the Mark Twain National Forest and fell in love with the dense woodlands, countless swift rivers, and rolling hills. You could walk for miles without any signs of civilization. There is something special to me about discovering new places and exploring nature at your own pace. Eventually I had to move away from the country to go to college. I was disappointed at the established hiking trails near my university city. Not because of the scenery, but because of the people. The city environment spoiled what made me passionate about my hobby. The once pristine trails from my memory were now littered with trash. People made to much noise and scared away the wide life. These were not true hiking trails, but more exhibits of nature that was spoiled by its convenience.

I remember the first night I had the idea to go hiking at night. At night everyone left the parks and nature trails, and the night was much cooler than the 100 degree daytime summer heat at the time. All it took was one trip, and I was hooked. Usually I would go to the trail in the daytime and take a moment to scope out the park. My primary concern was avoiding the attention of the forestry wardens. Although there would probably be no serious consequences if I were caught it added a small element of danger which made it more exciting. Up until this point I had been night hiking 15 or 20 times, but what happened during this trip changed everything. I have not been able to bring myself to go back since.

I had to been to Ha Ha Tonka State Park a couple of times before, but had never had a chance to see it at night. The park is beautiful as I am sure anyone that has been would say. The main feature of the park is the ruins of an old turn-of-the-century castle constructed on a huge bluff overlooking the Lake of the Ozarks. The scenery consists of glades, meadows, natural bridges, sinkholes, and caves. Ha Ha Tonka is said to be named by the Native Americans which is translated as “Laughing Waters” in reference to the gushing springs in the area. The park was well maintained and was crisscrossed with many many trails, boardwalks, bridges, and outlooks. Here is some information on the park and some pictures.

The park is closed at sunset so I had scoped out an area mainly being concerned with a place to park that would not draw attention and find an efficient way into the park after dark. I found the perfect spot about a quarter of a mile past an old nearby post office. Since I was not familiar with the area and had to walk through the forest I had marked the trailhead on my GPS and grabbed a trail map during the daytime so I could easily locate it at night.

I got out of my car and got my gear ready for the trip. I set my location on my GPS so that I would be able to locate my car at night without any problems. It was a little after midnight when I set out to find the trailhead. The night started off beautifully. It was a full moon that night and it allowed plenty of light to see where I was stepping. I remember it was warmer than usual that night, but there was almost no wind at all which was perfect. Less wind means that I would be able to hear wildlife (or forestry wardens) before they saw me. After about 30 minutes I found the trail head easily enough and got started on my way.

I continued to walk though the woodland and came upon a large clearing. Before entering the clearing I paused for a moment to take a drink of water and allow myself to become acquainted with the sounds of the night. I closed my eyes and listened to the crickets and tree frogs which echoed through the forest. After placing my water bottle back into my pack I looked across the glade to see if I could spot any people or wildlife and didn’t see anything.

I paced slowly at first to warm up and to preserve my strength. The scenery went from an open meadow, to scattered shrubs, and became denser and denser until I was surrounded by dark forest. The moon showed through the trees and provided enough light to see without a flashlight. Stripes of moonlight that filtered through the tree limbs projected onto the path. I noticed a large rock on the side of the trail and took note of it as to not to trip over it in the dark. As I got closer it became clear what I was looking at. I retrieved and turned on my flashlight careful to keep the light low to the ground, and what I saw paralyzed me. It was a dead deer. I’ve hunted a fair amount in my youth which included skinning, field dressing, and butchering so I had seen many in my lifetime. I had never seen anything like this and will always have a picture of it ingrained in my memory.

It was a White Tailed Buck which was common to the area. It was about 200 lbs and had an 8 point rack. I have happened upon dead deer while hiking which didn’t make this too rare. If you don’t get a good shot at a deer it will bolt and if injured eventually bleed out and die, but get far enough away that the hunter will not find it. I’ve also seen deer which maybe a coyote or stray dog may have ran down and ate. As soon as the light shown upon it I felt it was wrong. The skin was missing. It was not unheard of to find a deer that something had been eating on, but the thing was it didn’t have the appearance of it. Its muscles, tendons, and bone were exposed from its hooves to the base of it’s skull and were untouched. I then noticed something else. Its head was lopped around backwards. Something had snapped its neck. The eye (or where it’s eye should have been) facing upward was gone. I don’t know how such a thing would happen as obviously nothing in nature would do that. Someone would have had to shoot or run down the buck and use enough force to yank the head of a large buck 180 degrees. Why would someone do this if the deer was already down for the count? Then there was its skin. I flicked my flashlight around and didn’t see any fur, marks, or tracks other than footprints of the daytime hikers. When wild animals eat they usually rip parts of the fur off leaving a fairly large amount of fur scattered on the ground. No smell, no signs of rot, no flies or maggots, and most of all this was a public trail so things like this would be cleared in the day time. I wondered if it was still warm, but I really didn’t like the idea of touching it. This was done that night.

Not wanting to stick around I put away my flashlight and walked away. I really was not frightened at that point, but I was on edge. My senses were sharper, I stepped more slowly and with caution so I could hear better. In this distance I heard the faint murmuring sound of the waters the park was named after. As I walked the sound increased. The sound of the quick running water sloshing over rocks sounded like a soft whisper with slight hints of snickering. I could not see the stream, but knew it had to be close. It had been about 30 minutes since I had seen the deer, and I wanted to get my bearings. I opened my pack and took a drink of water. I retrieved the trail map I took from the forestry department during the daytime, and compared it with my GPS’s location. There were no streams within half a mile. I stopped breathing and listened. Nothing… I didn’t hear anything. The sound of water was gone. For an instant I did become scared, but calmed myself. I rationalized with myself it was probably the wind and not a stream. The sound of a steady wind though the dense forest could easily sound like running water. I was about halfway though the hike and following a trail loop which would bring me back near where I can get back to my car. I picked up the pace.

The terrain became more rocky and rugged. The left side of the trail grew into a large cliff facing and the right side of the trail was a large drop. This is where I first heard it. I stopped for a moment to listen closer, and realized it was coming from behind me. It sounded like a faint step on loose gravel and a dragging sound. Because of the bend in the trail and the cliff facing I could not see anyone behind me, but knew that what ever it was, was very near. I remember thinking it was strange that I was able to hear something that faint when I noticed that there were no other sounds. I felt my skin prickle and my hair stand on end and I was rooted into place with an unexplained feeling of fear. Fixed in place I watched the trail behind me for a few moments and listened closely.

Crunch.

Scrappppppppe …

Crunch.

Scrappppppppe …

Crunch.

Throwing caution to the wind I called out.

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<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 15px; padding-left: 0px; ">My eyes were fixed on the path behind me. I stared long enough that the edges of my vision grayed and tunneled. A slight breeze blew softly through the trees which made a whispering sound. Was that the wind? I looked at the dense foliage around me and nothing moved although the sound persisted. Did I get closer to a stream and not notice it? The sound was growing louder now, and it was coming for me.

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<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 15px; padding-left: 0px; ">My eyes darted back to the path behind me. There was something there. A shadowy form was hunched down over the trail. Its edges were blurred from the shadows of the trees. I would say it moved but that is because that is the closest thing I can relate it to. It borrowed the neighboring shadows as its form raised up from the trail. A single eye reflected the moonlight in the center of its mass. The slight whispering sound increased sharply to a swell of gibberish, chatter, and a chorus of laughter.

<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 15px; padding-left: 0px; ">That was it, flee with fleet feet or meet defeat. I ran faster than I had ever had before. Adrenaline pumped though my body as I dashed down the trail. I was not able to see the blazes marking the trails, but know I was both running away from it and toward my car. The trees around me blurred past as I sprinted becoming a distortion of moonlight and darkness. I ran until I could no longer ignore the sharp pain in my lower stomach and was completely out of breath. I stopped a moment to catch my breath. I tried my best to calm my breathing and listen. I took my GPS out and looked how close I was to my car. I had a little less than a mile, but I had to leave the trail to get back to where I parked. I could still hear the murmuring in the night but it was very slight. That was all I needed. I kept the GPS in hand so I didn’t have to stop and take it out and I quickly jogged to the point I would exit the trail and have to go through the forest to get back. Moving through the forest was both slower and noisier. At about a hundred feet from the trail I chanced a look back. The eye was there, and it was looking at me. I could not tell if the trees were moving or if it was only their shadows. Darkness wavered and flowed around it, and it was coming. No longer caring about being heard or seen I took off. I don’t remember how I made it or how long it took. I vaguely remember the pain from running but didn’t care. I got to my car, and got the fuck out of there.

<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 15px; padding-left: 0px; ">I have never told anyone about it since.