Board Thread:Writer's Workshop/@comment-25112831-20140904183314

I'd be really grateful if someone can help expain why on earth it won't let me publish my story.... I clicked publish and it came up with that little message (im sure you all know the one) and someone said it is triggered by spam so don't have to much swearing in your story and it shoudl be ok and also not to have any blacklisted material. I'm also certain I have none of that... But am I wrong? is there something I missed that is triggering this filter? And also any suggestions on how to improve my story would be greatly aprreciated! :P Thank you!

It's called - 'Monsters' are a work of fiction...

It’s funny, novelists, how they reserve certain words for certain people, certain characters. I never really thought of it until now. Strange, how on the edge of a knife’s blade these things can occupy my mind. They’re taking me over – clouding over my thoughts. I don’t really know what to think… So, for now, I’ll just think of whatever demands to be thought, those starnge little things that you soon forget and never really pay much attention to... Before I lose my last and only chance. And right now, as I suddenly jerk ever so close to this precarious little cliff edge of mine, I suddenly find it rather amusing, how in a series of books or one of those modern thrillers, words are reserved, as if particular words have some sort of power or nobility over others, for a particularly - how would I put it? Potent character. Strong. Authoritative, I suppose. Or disgusting... But some are almost unheard of. Some more shocking than others - ‘Monster’. A word rarely used but rather saved. ‘Monster’, a word kept hidden away in a writers locket, saved for their most brutal of characters, striking fear into readers hearts! So little does it ever appear... So little. Then one day, you notice it, subconsciously, in the corner of your eye, just more writing in a sea of words that somehow form a book. Nevertheless, for just a minute it throbs and pulses, beckoning for your attention and all of a sudden this character is a whole other person. It goes from your average psycho super villain to some demonic work of another being, a sick mess not meant for this earth, a waste of a man searching for any shred of light to tear it from the very words on the freshly pressed pages and turn your skin a sickly grey. ‘Monsters’ are works of fiction. There are no true monsters in this world, surely?

"You'll be in by seven then, darling? In the morning?" She croaked, acting all 'family' yet obviously somewhat suspicious of me. She never really trusted anyone. It didn't matter how many promises I kept, she would always be a typical old woman. Suspicious of the youth, strict, stern and just a little bit scary. I smiled, weakly.

“Yes, yes, of course Natallie, that’s fine!” I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. I spent so much time with her then, she was essentially family. “I’ve got some of my old books for Laura, okay? I’ll bring them in tomorrow. I’ll be here early then, okay, to help you bake the rolls.” She nodded, clearly doubtful. I put on my sweet, ‘see you later’ smile and drifted off towards the door, letting myself out with a friendly wave. “Have a lovely evening Natallie!” I shout as I skipped out of the door, arms full of bags of fresh cakes and bread from the bakery and some old, neglected books of Natallie’s she had thrown my way.

When I was shortly out of sight, I sighed, frustrated. ‘Not again.’ Why did I always sign myself up for this stuff? Always saying I’d do other people favours! It was in my nature. Had to be that I was just too nice a person: coming into work early in the bakery at Natallie's beckoning call; helping set up displays during my only break to please the ‘boss’, a seemingly sweet old lady (of course, Natallie); giving away my old novels (I love my books, they're family to me) to Natallie’s spoilt granddaughter, Laura, to keep her out of my way; advertising; doing other people’s dirty work and running lazy, little errands like buying milk for the neighbours on my way back from town. How ridiculous! Natallie... A sweet old bird really, just a little out of it sometimes, grumpy too… But I deserved a raise! An extended holiday at the least. I kicked a dirty puddle, sending plumes of water into the air. The streets had been quite all day. Odd. They were usually deafening with the buzz of everyday life particularly with everyone coming across the sea at the moment, looking for opportunities. America is currently 'The Big Thing'! Yet, no one.

It felt cold in the heavy, afternoon mist, unusual for this area, and unerving silence of the streets. In the distance I heard the gentle drip of a leaking pipe. I had never noticed it before - must be new damage from last weeks storms. The air felt like it was pushing down on me, weighty. There was no sweet smell in the breeze, like usual, from the fresh, warm bakeries and welcoming food stands. Everything was shut away, curling themselves into defensive balls like frightened animals. It was sad really. Seeing the darkened windows - so lonely. No life, no busy shops or loud crowds. Weird.

I approached my street, winding down a small back ally, as always. It’s eerie back there. Always was. My gut told me not to go back there incase you meet a stranger or get trapped or stuck or hurt. It's a scary little place. Always another load of junk dumped back there, seemingly lurking in the dark, dark, dark corners, ready to jump out and grab you, apparently coming from nowhere. At the same time it's interesting, how some fears are stronger than others. For all the money in this world, I wouldn’t dare waltz with an armed murderer - But to shave off a few minutes, I’ll happily dance through the putrid sea of garbage, a haven for danger, to get back to the comfort of my home just a little bit quicker. Even against that little flicker of instinct. People are hardwired to fight or flight. In this case flight... Why would you stick around in such a shady space? But, after years of all this pushing and pressure on society, it’s become a normal part of life to deny these little, innate behaviours, fears. So we cut corners. Shave off time. Take the dark alleys. Hide fear. Convenience.

Do I wish I'd listened to my gut now.

I woke abruptly. It took me a moment to shake the tightening hands of my lungs. My chest felt as if it was on fire, I was swallowing blades, my throat seething with pain… Blood. Lots of blood, in my mouth, on the back of my tongue. What was that taste? Metal? Must be the blood... But It couldn’t be - too strong. It tasted familiar, of those strong iron supplements you put in drinks. It made me gag. I took a long, dragging breathe. My eyes were blurred. It was like a smoke screen hung over my face. It took a second to blink the sleep out of my eyes and finally get my bearings… I wish I had never looked. Just slept. Kept sleeping… forever. I wish I had never looked.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">“Oh God…” I murmured. He was there. There in the corner of the room. This empty room. All white walls, stained with unknown marks. Blood? Chemicals? There was one door. Even that was a dirtied white. Nothing but us remained in that desperate little room, not even windows.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">My eyes fixed themselves on the strangers scuffed, leather shoes, too frightened to meet his glare. He remained still. Just… standing. The man in the alley. The last face I saw before it all went black. The one who brought me here - wherever it was. A man of fear… A man who had learnt to take advantage of societies pressure. Pressure to deny small fears. He waited, in a shadowy corner of the alley. Clever. And he’d done well. He knew what he was doing. Grabbed me on my way home from work, unsuspecting, in a quiet, hidden place and held me tight until I blacked out. An alley leading to my home and so close to safety. Clever.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">He just stood there, gazing at his prize from under his dark black hood. My hands shook uncontrollably as they searched behind me for a weapon, door, window, anything, only finding a wall. I began to sob and weep, begging and praying under my breathe, hauling my sore body to the back of the room. I couldn’t stop myself. i was breaking down. “No… Nooooo!” I began screaming, possessed by dread. The dread that that hood, lingering just over his brow line, shadowing his eyes, would drop back, that I'd have to face those cold, bitter eyes. Dreading he would look up, hold my stare, directly at me. I dreaded he would laugh. Something ugly. Finding pleasure in my pain... I dreaded the worst would happen.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">After some alarmed debating, I forced myself to glance up at him, ready to throw my hands out in defence, to protect myself. My head felt a tonne! It hurt to move. I could hear it creek with strain and tension in my neck as I lifted it reluctantly, like some rusted, grating lever. But he didn’t move. Even when I looked him straight in the face. ‘Oh God, show mercy!’ I thought. I panicked. I began to hyperventilate! ‘Help me! God, I'm scared!’ All I could feel was the intense burning of his eyes on me. On my face. I was waiting for him to reach out and grab me… To end me! The hair on my arms stood on end. Why didn’t he just finish this? End this torment! Stop this torture! It took some time after that... For me to notice it.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">His knee length, hooded coat sheltered his face. A few silky black locks hung from the sides, hiding his ears. His neck was encircled by a wide leather choker, oddly out of place on his lanky body. He was roughly dressed, no care, very tall, slim, intimidating. Smart clothes. An expensive coat in fact – but awkwardly shaped, pointed up at the shoulders. Lopsided. His shirt hung all over the place, his undone tie of blue and pale yellow stripes, draped round his shoulders, just covered by his open coat. His trousers had no button and were held togther with string. Yet, none of that shocked me… None of that made him as horrifying as he really was… It was the mask. Encasing his face was a second world war gas mask. Olive green, beaten and well used. It was terrifying. It struck fear into the pit of my stomach, tightening my chest. It was chocking. I was choking! I hadn't even seen it, that horrible thing, my vision to impared to make it out. I barely noticed him chuckling evilly as my eyes fixed on the metal canister he held tightly, grasped in one fist. He lifted it slowly, dramatically into the air, chest height. He held it, laughing, so it pointed straight at my sorry, quivering face. The dread set in. “Please…” I cried, loud, heavy sobs as I begged! Begged for my life, suddenly changing my mind, not to end it. Not to end me! I didn't want to die! He took three long, slow, delibrate steps in my direction. “Please, no!” ... He pulled the lever.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">I ran, shrieking as sections of skin melted away, throwing myself into the door at the back of the room. The pain was unbearable! It was dissolving my flesh! I could feel my eyes shrivel and roll in their sockets, extreme stinging pains taking over my entire face. What was that awful stuff? My lips began to blister as the door burst open and I hit hard into the opposite wall of the corridor outside. In a blind panic, I sprinted down to one end of the hall way, hoping for some sort of release. I couldn’t think… Too much pain. I just ran. I madly clawed at my face with one hand, running the other along the walls, feeling my way through that hell. Screw society... My flight instinct kicked in, no longer frozen by dread.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">What was that horrible stuff? My skin felt like it was peeling from my face. I could feel my sore, open wounds weeping and bleeding, running all down my eyelids and cheeks, sitting on my top lip before pooling and rolling off. Huge, red blisters plastered my delicate face. They hurt… So much! But it didn’t stop. It felt like I had been doused with oil and set alight. It didn’t stop. It just didn’t stop! I could feel my tongue begin to swell in my mouth until I was literal swallowing it. I could barely breathe as I panted, distraught, begging for air. What was it? Gas? Some sort of colourless gas. It stung. A lot. Destroyed me… My skin. Eyes. Mouth. It was eating away at me… That smell? Almonds. I’d heard of this before, in my books and novels. From wars…Used in world wars. World War 2. The smell… Bitter almonds. I had read about it so many times, over and over... Cyanide? I choke, urging and gagging on my own tongue, struggling to force tears from my slowly swelling eyes.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">Cyanide.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">I didn’t have long. This stuff would kill me. I knew it would kill me. If he had given me enough… Unless that was his intention. Had he given me just enough to cause me this pain? Yet, leave me alive, scarred? I thought of my books. of the soldiers and all the men that would die... But all of those that would survive too, blinded and hurt, but recovering in hospital. I tried to scream, emitting only sorry gurggles. I couldn’t fathom what must be going through that sick man’s mind. I didn’t have time to.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">Finally, after what felt like forever, my hand slammed into the raised edge of a door frame. I brought myself to a halt, anxious to escape. I still didn’t get it. I couldn’t understand why he hadn’t caught me yet. The dread that he was standing right behind me was just too much but I had to keep moving. I couldn’t stop! I had to put it out of my mind… but I couldn’t help but wonder if this was all some big game to him, if he was letting me get away. For the chase.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">I fumble anxiously for the handle, blinded by the gas. When my reddened hands eventually found the freezing metal I swung it open, frantically searching for escape. Little did I know I would be greeted by bricks. I found myself pressed squarely up against a red brick wall, coarse and thick. A door… With a brick wall behind it! I scream in frustration, kicking out angrily. It's then I feel a twinge of pain in my leg. It felt like fire ants gnawing and crawling under my skin, pin pricks of pain all down my calf. They were bruises, like those caused after an injection. Injections? Had he experimented on me as I slept? What was this? I pushed off the wall, furious, and continued.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">A wall. Behind a goddamn door.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">It didn’t take me long to discover they were all like this. That, or : rusted shut; locked; some jammed from the other side; one or two seemed as if they were painted on, stickers, teasers just to raise up your hopes before they drop you down again; others were even chained, padlocks and all! At times, I could of sworn I heard quiet cries coming from behind them... And where were all the windows? Not one! Godforsaken corridors! They just seemed to loop back on themselves. Over and over and over and over! The same thing. Turning you in circles! Every now and then, just to mess with my head, a ghost-like cackle would echo from behind you, sometimes in front, stopping you dead, pushing you back. Occasionally, whispers, just by your ear, spinning you on your heels so you found yourself blindly thrashing at thin air. He was messing with me! That sick piece of trash was messing with me! I’d lost it… I had lost a battle. He had almost won. I couldn’t even cry anymore, my face to deformed to give any impression of a smile or frown, just melted skin.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">That house of hell was enough to turn anyone’s sanity inside out.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">After what had felt like hours, I found myself at the bottom of a staircase… Too tired, too sickly to go on. Where would I go anyway? Believe it or not, another freakin' wall! A dead end stair case! It just stops! It just stopped there, where it should continue - but doesn't. My last hope of salvation, I had lunged towards them, so promising, only to find another dead end and a crumpled me at the bottom of a staircase. More dead ends! Story of my life I guess. I lay there hopelessly. Last thing I remember is the dark of a freezing shadow looming over me as I drifted off.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">That’s when I finally lost consciousness.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">I have come to now. I don’t know where I am but I smell blood, chemicals, salt and sweat. The air is damp and stagnant. The musky smell of rotting wood is a sure sign of still, sitting water, eating away the supports of wherever we are. It's pitch black here. I see only faint shadows around me… But it’s hard to turn my head. Impossible almost. I wanted so hard to get out. To escape… And I know. This is it. I’m here now… I know it. This will be my final resting place. I reach below me to feel my surroundings. My back is arched over some sort of heap. Something soft, warm. What’s that, fabric? Clothes? I can feel buttons… Shirts, trousers. That…That’s lace. A dress? I feel something… Oh no! Thick, damp and knotted. Strands of something thin and wispy… Oh God, no. Hair. Human hair. I lie their helpless, my back arched over a pile of bodies. Human bodies. This is it. Definitely it. I go no further. After some time, a tear forces itself from my puffy, pink eyes… I’m here now. I know it. This will be my final destination. I close my eyes as a tall figure leans over the selection wielding a glinting, silver scalpel. I refuse to live to see this happen...

<p class="MsoNormal">Goodnight.

<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%;mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri;mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;mso-fareast-language: EN-GB">It’s funny, novelists, how they reserve certain words for certain people, certain characters. I never really thought of it until now. I suddenly find it rather amusing, how in a series of books or one of those modern thrillers, words are reserved, as if particular words have some sort of power or nobility over others, for a particularly - how would I put it? Potent character. Strong. Authoritative, I suppose. Or disgusting... But some are almost unheard of. Some more shocking than others - ‘Monster’. A word rarely used but rather saved. So little does it ever appear... So little. Then one day, you notice it, subconsciously, in the corner of your eye, just more writing in a sea of words that somehow form a book. Nevertheless, for just a minute it throbs and pulses, beckoning for your attention and all of a sudden this character is a whole other person. ‘Monsters’ are works of fiction. At least that’s what I used to believe.

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<p class="MsoNormal">And that is the end of my story... Any blacklisted material? Or something that is stopping me from publishing? Any good? Any feedback or advice? Thanks for any help :P xx

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